So... We have our next round of IVF scheduled. I am currently taking all the medications necessary to prepare my body for the egg retrieval. I will have my first ultra sound on Monday, March 23 and that will predict what day my eggs will be "extracted" (sometime later that week). Once they extract the eggs, we will wait three days and then they will put a few eggs back in (probably two, definitely not six or eight). And then we will wait and see. A couple of weeks later I will have some blood tests to determine if my body is "keeping" the eggs or not.
There is nothing definite about this process, other than the ultra sound. I don't know what day my body will be ready, or what day they will implant the eggs, or when or if I will be pregnant.
So I wanted to let you know so you can hurry up and wait it out with me...
On another note...
I feel somewhat remiss for not posting more often or making more updates. This has been a very strange process. In one way this is one of the most private things a family goes through, and in other ways I feel like the whole process should be transparent and I should share all my feelings, hopes, dreams, and fears.
This has been an extraordinarily busy 4 months. I have been stretched a little thin, and am worried about my constant stress level (I am a stresser anyway). I have let some important activities (like thrice weekly yoga) go by the wayside, and I feel like I have been sabotaging myself a little by not doing more for me. It's not like I am about to do some completely indulgent personal procedure like a week at the spa, but there is something in my psyche that tells me that this is too much about me and I need to focus on others. My current calling at church helps and hinders that mind set. It's just not easy for me to focus on me. (Don't get me wrong... I am so aware of how selfish I am... I just feel better about being selfish when I have the opportunity to balance it out with service... I just don't have the time or capacity for the service right now and that stresses me out, too.)
But my thoughts and feelings are never far from those who have made this round possible. It is so humbling to be the recipient of funds, time, energy, industry, and prayer. I am way more comfortable being on the other end, but I am grateful beyond words, song, art, dance, or any other form or expression. If I could stage a fireworks show for all of you, over the water, on a warm summer's evening, after a delicious BBQ and chocolate cake... that would begin to express it. I love you. I have needed you. Thank you for being there.